Backward westward, forward eastward.
I have not had a consistent internet connection since Thanksgiving, which coincidentally coincides with when I moved into Katie’s apartment, better known as the Castle. (That’s the last time I’ll have to write that for a year.)
Since then, I’ve been bombing this blog with nonsense. I vow to return to the days when posts consisted of thoughtful recollections and pretty pictures, with the occasional reblog of something life-threateningly awesome.
The first leg of my eastbound journey is complete, and I am now staying at my mother’s house in Pennsylvania until shortly after the holidays, when I will pack everything up and move along once again.
Being in LA, despite my temporary existence there being intrinsically linked to my company/work, felt like a vacation. However, it’s strange to return to a place where you once lived, and not be able to recreate the life you once had.
I knew well my personal boundaries within LA, but seemed unable to reach them no matter how far I stretched. But, at the same time, I feel I transcended old boundaries, and uncovered something new.
Is this a lesson in analyzing and appreciating experiences? Maybe when consistently living in a place, you don’t recognize change as much as you do when you are pulled out of it and dunked back in, possibly under different circumstances or restrictions, a different mindset?
It’s sad, in a way, knowing that a period has passed, especially when its ending has such a physical manifestation; but at the same time, should it not be exciting, knowing that you can return to somewhere you’ve already been, and expect to find a world filled with people and places that are comfortably familiar, but also a world filled with new unknowns to explore?
I guess this is how I rationalize this. I’m just afraid that if I keep leaving times and people and places that make me happy, I’ll eventually stop finding them.
Cheers to my fortmates, coworkers, and teammates in LA, and those who can’t be so easily corralled into categories.
Looking forward to India.
